"Living with Sobriety:...Another Beginning" p.34
Growing up in an alcoholic home resulted
in my almost never being aware of my honest thoughts and feelings. I
remember always feeling sad, lonely, fearful and usually "performed" what
I thought was expected to get my needs met.
Adult relationships kept me guessing how
I was coming across, often unable to really listen to others
in my own self-centeredness.
In my relationships with men I experienced
great difficulty trusting myself and my partners. I have experienced
a failed marriage with a "sober" man and it was certainly far
from ideal. I thought for sure I would be immune from lies and
abuse, but found manipulation and control present despite many
years of recovery for us both.
In my recovery today, I continue to learn
and grow with each relationship I experience. More importantly,
I have embarked on an exciting journey of discovering who Kathy
really is, loving and respecting her, myself. I'm learning how
to listen and not assume, as well as, how to let go of past hurts
and expectations. I'm not afraid of being me anymore! The journey
of recovery is such a Gift!